This week is the 8th of May and I need to decide if I will go back to the States this summer time or not. It is a big deal going back there because I have no household or car and it is pretty strenuous trying to make it all work when I am back. I used to have a home and a car waiting there for me, but after being out of the US for almost eight years I finally had to sell them both. So now when I go back I need to find an air conditioned home to stay in and rent a climate controlled car to get around with. It is not cheap going back and when you add up all of the expenses it almost makes you wonder if going home is possible to do anymore. I normally go back for Christmas to be around mom’s fireplace while she cooks a meal. I entirely miss my mom and feel like moving back sometimes, but as long as my song work is advancing here in Europe after that I will keep staying and chasing my dreams. I work for a local business here in the neighborhood and like working there as a heating and air conditioning specialist during the weekdays. On weekends we play songs in bars and on the streets and make some pretty enjoyable money in the process. I cherish songs and I cherish my mom and my family, which is kind of a tug of war in my heart all of the time. I’d cherish being in front of mom’s gas fireplace with a guitar in my hands and have both right now.